The Darkness
I am not going to go on this long tangent about what depression does or is. However, I am going to explain what depression does and is to me . Most of the time, I call it "The Darkness". I can't really see it, and it can creep up on me at any given second, and when it does, it casts a shadow over everything I love - me included. "The Darkness" is a good nickname for the part of my brain that wants to be an asshole. More and more, people are starting to notice the seriousness of this "disease". Great. That still doesn't make a huge difference in my life. When I wake up, with the gut feeling of: "This is going to be a dark week", it's not others' realization of "The Darkness" being an actual, real thing that gets me through it. It's not positive thinking, or smiling through it that keeps me from making the million versions of "How I Can Kill Myself" become a reality either. There are times, where I wish...